Answered Prayer

So I need to give God some props. Night before last as I was going to bed I prayed that He would show me if we were at the church He wanted us to be at. I questioned it only because John hasnt felt a real connection where we are. So anyway, I got up today and needed to go get my dad and step-daughter birthday cards. So after I dropped lunch off to John at work I stopped at Hallmark. Anyhoo, when I went to pay she asked for my Gold Crown Rewards card and as I gave it to her I asked her how to change my address for it, since I was still getting coupons sent to our old address. She gave me a card to fill out and then put it in her computer system there. She asked where we came from and what brought us there. I told her and thanked her and went to leave. As I was leaving there was a display of Jelly Bellys(YUM), a bag of Dr. Pepper jelly bellys caught my eye. They are Olivias favorite so I bought her a bag for part of her birthday gift(yes Christmas just got over and already we have 5 b-days in our family w/in one month,UGH,I mean yay for their birth, and boo for our wallets) When I went back to the register the lady happened to ask me if we were looking for a church and invited me to hers which her dad just retired from being the pastor(he happened to be there and I met him) and they have recently hired a new one. I told her where we have been attending but that we were still trying to see where we fit. She gave me a card with her church info I thanked her and left. As I walked out the door I smiled and started to cry, I was amazed at how quickly God had answered my prayer. I dont know if it will be the place for us, but u never know what He has for us. I just thought it was pretty awesome what He did.

Me

We are back home from our trip to Indiana. It's weird to say home when not referring to Indiana. It's also weird that when we were visiting family I really didnt feel like it was home anymore and I actually missed being here in Georgia. I'm surprised that there isnt anything I really miss about it. John on the other hand would go running back in a flash if he could. I'm happy and content to be "on my own". For so long I have relied on everyone around me to help me accomplish things, to decide what to do, and even what to think. I feel like I'm growing up, for once I can't run to anyone to have them save me, for once I have to FIRST turn to the One I should have turned to long ago. I don't really know anyone here and at times I feel completely secluded and in some strange way I like it. At other times I wish there was someone to call to go walking with or to run to the store with. I guess this is my time to figure out who it is that I am, for a long time I lived to make everyone else happy (something I took on as a 9 year old after I lost my sister). Maybe its time to figure out what makes me happy.